Little Miracles

Under The Lords Wing

 By: Jessica Swainson

For Gary and Lisa who always believed in me

I have days where I struggle with life, because I’m special need. I worry everyday if I am going to get judged, based on my special needs, I also worry that I will not get married because it just hasn’t worked out for me, and because of my handicapped. I think to myself “Who wants to deal with me and my special needs?” Whenever I feel this way someone calls me or something out of the ordinary will happen. I am going to tell you of three experiences

              I remember this one time I was shopping with my mom and we walked by this chalk bored, Mom said “ Jess look” so I looked and there it was ‘ Make Jessica Proud’. I know that God was smiling down on me that day.

There is another experience that He gave me that I will never forget. This one time I was in Cardston going to the Latter Day Saint Temple. I was a wreck; I’ve just had my heart broken by a guy that I told I loved. I went for a walk around the temple grounds and as I did so I felt the Lord lift my heart up. It like he was saying to me” Jessica I know your heart aches, but it will get better.” So later that day I sat by my mother on a bench, and she said to me “ Jess try to think of a bad thought.” I replied, “ I can’t think of anything.” I know that God was holding my hand that day.

My final experience happened recently, I was on a dating site   and I met these two men who were very interested in me, and I was very excited because I never thought a man would like me. So I was watching, this television show and it was about this lady, who got cat fished and so I believe that the show was gods way, of telling me that online dating is not for me. So later that night I found out that one of the guys was a fraud, and the other guy blocked me. I believe that He was protecting me. He was telling me that He has a guy out there for me.

       God has and always will protect me and, I am so grateful for his hand in my life.